do you ever dream so much that you start to scare yourself? i mean, have you ever just withdrawn from reality and made yourself a little home in the quarters of your mind? then you dream up something so ideal and all of sudden you feel little waves of panic wash over you because you've just realized this whole mess you've made in your head. and the scariest thing you realize, is that while you have been living above and beyond what you want in your mind, you haven't really been living in reality, at all.