so, my brother got me a website for christmas?
i suppose ill be adding my school and philosophy blog and whatever else more on there that, i guess i wanna share on the internet. yep. so its officially:
www.louiseplace.se
www.louiseplace.se
i write only because there is a voice within me that will not be still.
now go bugger off and do something useful like telling her you love her.
to the apartment overlooking the sea.
i will be realistic with myself. i can get lost in my dreams. so lost that reality hurts when it hits you on the side of the head, but i also know that dreaming is nothing if no action is put into it. expectations are predecessors of disasters and the more you build something up in your mind, the faster the walls will crumble down by the impact of reality. tonight is the night i will seize the moment with my shaky hands. i have to catch a dream before it flees within a passing second or else i’m in for a rude awakening. may my life be a serendipitous collision of events and destiny, and lead me to the apartment overlooking the sea.
i must wait for your next hello.
i could feel your heated stare burning against my back as i tried to remain cool and collected with composure. yet it’s my conscience that tames the wild manifestation of passion building up in my heart. i wish our inner beasts would take hold of our dispositions and reveal the true nature of our feelings. and so you remembered my name. your lips played with it as the sound rolled off your tongue and resounded in your mouth. it was such a lovely tune. i wish you could sing it to me but for now, i must wait for your next hello.
ten different things i want to say to ten different people right now:
- you’ve made such a difference in my life yet i’m constantly afraid of losing you.
- i don’t hate you i’m just jealous.
- why did you leave? i was so young and it was at the time i needed you most.
- the years i saw you lay on the couch and slowly die are why i’m depressed.
- just because you provide us with tangible materialistic crap doesn’t make up for you never being here/caring.
- you’ve ruined me.
- you’ve become like a mother to me, i forgot what it felt like to genuinely be loved and cared for. you’re one of the most important people in my life and i wish i told you that more.
- i miss you.
- show me. everything.i
- i love you and you mean a lot to me but i never want to meet you and i regret becoming friends with you.
i was as hollow and empty as the spaces between the stars.
sometimes when my limbs ache i can't tell if it is because i am tired of genuinely hurting or yearning to get out and run fast for miles until i lose all feeling and drown in stupefaction. i was as hollow and empty as the spaces between the stars.
